So, I found this little booklet with ramblings. All super emo. Here are a few choice ones…

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i’m singin into the carpet again
don’t know how, don’t know when
i let the madness settle in
drinking tears for dinner
until it’s not a sin

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everyone’s a thunder
a phoenix on the rise
chasing their own danger
plotting their demise
is it any wonder
the angel closed her eyes?

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i’ve figured it out
this mathematics of tears
fragile hearts are broken
then mended by our fears

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come back
to who you used to be
bring your pink balloon
you’re looking in a mirror
no one in the room
take back
the things they stole from you
they know not what they do
you’re twirling like a flower
growing into you

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And then this note to self:

maybe I should do like Johnny Depp. write it down and never read it again.*

Good idea, Alyssa. Or, you know, just read the last page and leave it at that:

Btw, I’m writing another fucked up feature. I’m hoping humanity wins. We’ll see.

x
a

*Johnny Depp, apparently, doesn’t watch any of the movies he acts in. He says he does this because his job is done when he’s done acting, and it helps him avoid being self-conscious on future jobs.

Because I can’t help how I see things, perhaps my journey is to find those others who see Reality as I do, and, at the same time, to allow those who do not see the same, the space to exist, to their capacity. No harm, no foul. Infinite diversity necessitates all expressions.

This will feed to other social media, and I wish I could remember how to turn that off :/ Alas, I cannot. So everything gets this. Oh weo.

“Life is here to Love you. But you have to show up with your party dress on.” – moi

Alyssa Lobit Penned Among Friends Film Set For Summer 2013 Release

Los Angeles, CA (March 11, 2013) – Among Friends, a horror comedy about a dinner party gone horribly wrong penned by Alyssa Lobit and featuring Alyssa as Bernadette is set for a summer release by Lionsgate Home Entertainment (US) and Anchor Bay (Canada). (Scene from Among Friends at: http://youtu.be/sNGYmSqoqgY)

Grindstone Entertainment acquired the US rights to the Three Little Birds Productions’ which marks the directorial debut of veteran scream queen Danielle Harris (Halloween, The Last Boy Scout). Set against an 80’s themed party as the backdrop, in the film, the “good times” take a decidedly dark turn when one in the group hijacks the evening in the name of “integrity”. The movie stars Christopher Backus, Jennifer Blanc, AJ Bowen, Dana Daurey, Brianne Davis, Kane Hodder, Kamala Jones and Chris Meyer, as well as Alyssa.

Regarding the film, her script and role, Alyssa said, “Writing Among Friends was challenging because it’s basically about the dark side of human behavior, and I try to go in extremely deep when writing. It’s always fun to see how my words get translated to screen and the response I get when people find out I wrote it, because it starts out fun and devolves into a terrifying carnival ride. They definitely look at me sideways after seeing it, especially because my character, Bernadette, is so twisted! I just smile and say that everything I write is based on a true story. In one way or another, I suppose it is. I don’t think anyone will be showing up to any of my parties for a while.”

Alyssa Lobit is a triple threat… actress, writer and filmmaker. She’s an Academy Nicholl Fellowships Quarterfinalist with the award-winning indie drama THE THINGS WE CARRY (http://www.TheThingsWeCarry.com now available on iTunes), placing in the top 5% of 5,050 entries in this prestigious screenplay competition. THE THINGS WE CARRY marked her debut as both writer and lead actress in a feature and went on to screen at 18 festivals, including Boston, Hollywood, Atlanta and Wisconsin, winning several awards at the Wild Rose Independent Film Festival (Best Feature, Best Actress, Best Screenplay), Best Narrative at the Flyway Film Festival and the Audience Award at the San Francisco United Film Festival.

Lobit made her debut as a director and producer with the comedy ONE MAN’S TRASH, which won the Los Angeles Flickering Image Film Fest and was a finalist in the highly competitive Indie Producer Contest. She has received critical acclaim for her stage performances, including recognition for a standout performance in the World Premiere of SLOW BOAT and an LA Weekly nod for her performance in NIGHT COIL. She has appeared in several short films that have screened and won awards at festivals across the country. She graduated cum laude from U.C.L.A. with a B.A. in English. Among Friends is Alyssa’s second writing/acting feature endeavor.

Among Friends is executive produced by Jay Lobit (Three Little Birds Productions) and William Allison (Hollywood Treasures, Inc.). Producers are repped by Jennifer Gray and Elsa Ramo. Alyssa Lobit is repped by Adam Trahan at Artist International Management.

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<3
A Lo

I have hurt people, in ways that I have been hurt, after vowing to not ever create that kind of expression in the face of another upon hearing my words, resultant from the verbal daggers I throw to cut to the truth. It will never feel right, cutting that way, and yet there is a compulsive (com?)passion which overtakes me, a mission to unleash demons, that they may devour the fear bred by polite correctness, by pretense. I am in this world, but not of it, and there is no more clarity of such than when in conversation with some earthling I love, when life itself is at stake. “Life” being aliveness, awareness, awakeness. My fierceness stems from the unlikeliest of places, this (in)human heart [*in a human], the one that pumps blood through me, and invariably onto any who would stand before me and pretend not to know that the forming of the Universe occurred via the very same explosive nature of creation, complete with bang and scattering of shrapnel known more commonly as stars. We — or, more and more, I — understand that Love is all ways the basis, the intent. Therefore to hear it from any other Source is at once confusing and disturbing.

There is a chance that the cosmos understands, as it is the collective child of such chaotic, Loving explosion. And this is why I will always hug the sky, and feel like I am going home when I keep my head up*

so here it is, what i iz learning’d:

that i am not always right, and that sometimes, i soooooo am. that breathing is usually a good answer to any question. that my soulmates are anyone i’m talking with. that sometimes i pop into a new reality, and only some people look familiar, but all of us are here to be fulfilled… to enjoy. and those no longer here are simply showing up in different configurations (read: values). that snow and open, wide plains are the reboot. that when i look at the sky, i feel less alone than ever. and sometimes the sky looks like the eyes of a child, or an adult with child* that laughing loud and laughing often is the old school way: how else can we surpass our greatest “defeats” with an eye toward what must become more? that pinwheel cookies are snacks, and meals, too. that Godliness is alive and well. that the wee hours are here, waiting, for someone to listen. and that, yes, completely, we are here to THRIVE <3

Next up, Canada. Then Ireland.

Living the dream <3

A Lo

I love you…
I mean,
me